prudent bird

2010-02-18T01:12:00.001Z

When we love someone with our heart, we become so blind that when we see that person far from perfection, even then we can not stop loving him/her. When we have to choose our life partner we should be objective and choose the one with whom we can live in peace and with respect and trust.

Marriage is an institution and it should never be taken casually!

2010-02-17T00:31:00.003Z

Marriage, a word, as scared as it sounds, truly holds a sacred position in Islam. Nikkah is what bounds two souls together in our religion. There are certain conditions that need to be fulfilled for Nikkah and the same holds true for marriage.
The first condition (requirement) for marriage between a Muslim man and woman is mutual attraction and then comes the Dowry.
For people who have never met their spouses before marriage, might realize years later if they really love their spouse or better yet are attracted? But that would be too late...wouldn't it be???
Engagement seems like a very important period for the couple to know about each other and to see if they really do attract and if he/she really is the right person.
Where an engagement gives the couple ample time to consider one another within the religious boundaries, it also sometimes shows the man or the woman, that side of their fiance, that no one else might have seen or known .Thereby helping the man/woman to decide whether to take this engagement to the next step (marriage) or call it off!!!
Engagement does seem like a very important part of this institute called marriage!! well to me at-least!!

2010-02-15T15:03:00.000Z

no regrets - just lessons learned!!!

by Anonymus but very well said!

2010-02-08T19:44:00.000Z

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

hopeless hope

2010-02-05T01:41:00.003Z

the bitter reality of life- sometimes the hope in your heart, gets trapped inside. You can not share it with anyone, nor can you express it.
You keep thinking about it day and night, and woefully, it dies its own death. A slow, silentious, mournful death.
and while you agonize over its death, you 'hope' for its reincarnation.
--------had I known, I would have saved this hope--------------------

2010-02-05T00:49:00.001Z

make it stop oh Dear God!!!

back in Queen's land!!!

2010-01-13T00:48:00.002Z

so I am back in Queen's land.... and this time, its a stress free, no studies stay!!
Thank God for that, but maybe the reason behind this stay is more stressful. Working in U.K is not going to be easy, especially if it is a medical/dental field.

darya kee talash main gum hoon

2009-10-28T16:50:00.003Z

aik aisay darya kee talash main gum hoon, jo samandar main na giray....buss behta jayay..behta jayay... aur aik nao ho, jo uss main behti jayay...behti jayay.. kabhi na rukay
na uss naoo kee koi manzil ho aur na hee darya uss ko kissi manzil pohncha sakay....

2009-10-15T19:45:00.001+01:00

H a p P y

ME!

2009-09-20T14:41:00.000+01:00

I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know.
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye.
I don't want to stand with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.

I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of a man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in shame.

I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all people respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff, an empty show.

I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see.
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free.

Restorative dentist!

2009-09-09T21:40:00.002+01:00

Reached yet another milestone. I just can not thank my Allah enough for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me.
I remember one year ago how I was feeling. I never knew this year would pass so quickly.
All the difficulties that I had to encounter were not faced with a positive attitude, but, this one year did teach me how to keep a positive attitude towards life.
Also had the opportunity to test and practice my patience. Made some really good life long friends.
learned a lot of lessons, some through the hard way, and some through the easy way.
In short, the roller coaster ride, worth every minute! :)

arrogance and ego, virtues of Satan!!

2009-08-06T02:06:00.003+01:00

I came across a lot of arrogant people, with ego the size of a mountain. Such people are so called rule-breakers, and they love themselves as they think, they are different from the world.
well, I think, these are the exact qualities that "Satan/Shaitan" possessed.... he was arrogant, had a huge ego and broke the rule....
he is paying for being like this and will pay a handsome amount when he burns in hell on 'judgment day'!!
All those who are following his foot steps.. please!! get a hold of yourself, its never too late!

the whole world under one roof without a world war!

2009-07-27T00:56:00.007+01:00

one American, one Britisher, One Greek, two Chinese, and one pakistani.......
no this is not another one of those jokes with several dumb people from different countries making blunders to compete in stupidity!!
This is my flat, Brightmore house, which had all these nationalities under one roof.
there were no world wars!! but a few occasional arguments, solely addressing cleanliness.
three of the nationalities managed to become the closest of friends... which of coarse includes mine.
any guesses???
Chinese are not just my type of people, so that leaves behind four!!!!
now I don't have to spill the beans....
but the three of us were happy to have each other as flat mates!!!
everyone else had to leave and now only me and Vassiliki are here!!! alone in the huge flat!!
and when Vaz is not around... I hear strange sounds coming from the lounge!! :/
the haunted brightmore house??? :P

another milestone?

2009-07-27T00:48:00.003+01:00

just another few months and I will be getting a post graduate degree (InshAllah)... a degree I really worked hard for.

I always wanted to pursue a masters degree, but now I want to pursue a doctorate.....

I don't think I have the stamina for that!!! the clinical masters and the stress that came with it, was enough for this life time!!!

but if at all I DO, end up perusing a phD, God help me!

I wont be "me" anymore..... I miss myself already!!!!

a story common for a lot of people! I simply loved it

2009-07-25T15:32:00.007+01:00

beautiful Lyrics!! for all those who it relates to!! enjoy this lovely "SONG" by 'Anees Haider'

lil angel

2009-07-21T23:55:00.002+01:00

today I became a "phupo" (Aunt)
I wish the lil angel all the happiness in the world.
wish I could be there with my family today, with my mother, my borther to share this big day!! I am stuck in a land, which has only "struggle" as the rule to survive!
soon this chapter of struggle will be closed and a new chapter will stare back at me with the 'forewords', too scary for me to handle!!!

kia naam doon

2009-07-12T02:24:00.001+01:00

Dor koi bhi ho, baiton kay liaya maon kay khaab aik jaisay hee hotay hain

Un khabon kee zari main, kaheen tu doaun kee girhain lagnay lagti hain

aur kaheen umeed kee sheereni banti jaati hai

Laikin aksar surmay kee kaali lakeeron kay raastay saaray khaab beh jaatay hain

Kiyon kay tareekh ko shayad aik hee rang pasand tha…. laal rang

Wo….

Is do harfi kee bohat see shaklain hain

Wo ..jisay hum umer bhar chahtay hain

Wo…jissi hum kabhi nahi chahtay

Wo... jo hamaray saath rehta hai..

Wo… jo kabhi nahi milta..

Wo..jiss say hum naraz rehtay hain

Aur Wo.. jo apni marzi rakhta hai

Intezaarr

Bachpan main khilono ka intezar

Duaaon kay baad baarish ka intezar

Intezaar!!!!!

Chaltay chaltay koi naam dhoondta rehta hai

Gali kay moar pay tasweerain banata rehta hai

Kundiyon main atka rehta hai

Intezaar khatam ho jaata tu aankhain raaston say uth kay khud ko band na ker laiteen?

Intezaar kerna zaroori hai

Laikin intezaar ka thaiher jaana tu zaroori nahi

Hamaray pairon say bandhay raastay na ginti kay hain na gin’nay kay

Zindagee zaroorat kee unglii pakray dorti chali jaati hai

Koi awaz, koi sakoon, koi wada iss say rok nahi sakta

Khaahishon ka shoar, awaaz ko goongha ker daita hai

Aur zaroorat kee umar barhti rehti hai

Zindagee…zindagee bhala kahan rukti hai

Aik din mujhay raastay main aik shaks mila

Us nay haaton main do aik jaisay chehray utha rakhay thay

Poocha.. in do chehron ka kiya matlab

Bola.. aik main khud hoon, doosra ..duniya

Poocha..in main say tum kon ho

Bola..ab yaad nahi raha

Phir Poocha… iss ka fiada??

Bola..mujhay nuksaan say fiada uthanay kee aadat ho chuki hai

Kaheen door aik takhtii pay likhay hoyay kuch lafz muskura diaya

Aur hum dono nay apnay apnay chehray utha liyay

2009-05-30T15:01:00.001+01:00

The Woman of my Life!!

The woman in your life...very well expressed...

Tomorrow you may get a working woman, but you should marry her with these facts as well.

Here is a girl, who is as much educated as you are;
Who is earning almost as much as you do;

One, who has dreams and aspirations just as you have because she is as human as you are;

One, who has never entered the kitchen in her life just like you or your Sister haven't, as she was busy in studies and competing in a system that gives no special concession to girls for their culinary achievements

One, who has lived and loved her parents & brothers & sisters, almost as much as you do for 20-25 years of her life;

One, who has bravely agreed to leave behind all that, her home, people who love her, to adopt your home, your family, your ways and even your family, name...

One, who is somehow expected to be a master-chef from day #1, while you sleep oblivious to her predicament in her new circumstances,
environment and that kitchen

One, who is expected to make the tea, first thing in the morning and cook food at the end of the day, even if she is as tired as yo u are, maybe more, and yet never ever expected to complain; to be a servant, a cook, a mother, a wife, even if she doesn't want to; and is learning just like you are as to what you want from her; and is clumsy and sloppy at times and knows that you won't like it if she is too demanding, or if she learns faster than you;

One, who has her own set of friends, and that includes boys and even men at her workplace too, those, who she knows from school days and yet is willing to put all that on the back-burners to avoid your irrational jealousy, unnecessary competition and your inherent
insecurities;

Yes, she can drink and dance just as well as you can, but won't, simply Because you won't like it, even though you say otherwise

One, who can be late from work once in a while when deadlines, just like yours, are to be met;

One, who is doing her level best and wants to make this most important, relationship in her entire life a grand success, if you just help her some and trust her;

One, who just wants one thing from you, as you are the only one she knows in your entire house - your unstinted support, your
sensitivities and most importantly - your understanding, or love, if you may call it.

But not many guys understand this......

Please appreciate "HER"

Respect Her………..Understand her.

nice song and an equally good video!

2009-05-22T23:14:00.002+01:00

Takin' back my love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RrFUgCWYXFc

yeah maira dewana pan hai.... ya mohabat ka saroor

2009-05-18T02:39:00.002+01:00

something worth listening to!!! my favorite these days!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R1oQYnwoJq0

forgive or not to forgive!

2009-05-17T17:27:00.003+01:00

Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

(Mahatma Gandhi)

BUT

Forgiveness does not always lead to a healed relationship. Some people are not capable of love, and it might be wise to let them go along with your anger. Wish them well, and let them go their way.

(Anonymous author of RealLivePreacher.com)

Trip to Alton Towers 2nd May 2009

2009-05-04T23:32:00.001+01:00

As I was getting off the bus, I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I was with a group of twelve friends and I was looking forward to a wonderful day. Not that it was not wonderful, it was in fact much more than that….

I was lured into every ride, with the incentive, that this would be the best ride ever and that I should not miss it at any cost. And like a small child, who is, hastily finishing up a task, for the promised box of sweets, I kept on going from one ride to the other, anticipating more thrill and less fear.

But the reverse happened, with every ride, the thrill diminished and the fear became two folds, up until the last ride, the Oblivion. I was oblivious to what will happen in Oblivion………. I was taken up in the sky some 200 meters and then dropped straight down, from the open air, into a closed tunnel right before I thought I would hit the ground. It was a dark tunnel, cold and scary, but the feeling only lasted a few seconds, and the roller coaster brought me back up, high above the ground. I went through the exact same feelings of fear and helplessness I felt on 15th September 2008 when I fell into a similar tunnel. But this time, I came out of the tunnel, happy and alive. I even wanted to ride Oblivion once more, and then I realized, I have become much stronger, fearless.

Life is a roller coaster ride, and I am ready for it now, no matter how high it takes me, or how deep it throws me, how fast it goes or how fearful it gets… I will come out happy and fearless!!!

Nobility by Alice Cary (1820-1871)

2009-05-04T19:03:00.001+01:00

True worth is in being, not seeming,
In doing, each day that goes by,
Some little good--not in dreaming
Of great things to do by and by.
For whatever men say in their blindness,
And spite of the fancies of youth,
There's nothing so kingly as kindness,
And nothing so royal as truth.

2009-04-26T00:40:00.000+01:00

Winter must be cold for those with no warm memories

..and the shoe missed its target...THE BANDAR!!

2008-12-15T22:23:00.005Z

Its a free world, and so am I. Free to express my feelings about anything I wish for!!

and this is exactly what happened In Baghdad on Monday 15th December 2008, when a reporter felt like expressing his feelings towards the President of The United states, Mr George W.Bush, by throwing his "size 10 shoes" (as reported by the president himself) at him, one after the other.

When I watched the video, I just could not stop laughing for a good 15 minutes. Those of you who have seen it, will agree how HILARIOUS it was. The president ducks and saves himself....ah...I wish he had not missed the shoes.

I wish that shoe had smacked that monkey face real hard! with all due respect Mr Bush...you DO resemble a Bandar ( BUN-Dh_ERR) :) and there are a million people who will agree to that.

Anyways coming back to the topic, the reporter showed his hatred towards MR Bandar, and who wouldn't want to do that. I am sure we all have only imagined doing this when ever we see his face flashing on the screens, but only this courageous guy, the Iraqi reporter had the balls to pull it off. A big round of applause for him!!!!( he has already been considered not just as a national hero But as a Muslim Hero!! )

One needs to have a lot of "guts" to be able to do something like that. And I am sure it did scare Bush to death when he saw the shoe flying towards him, but he had the nerves to later on pretend that he didn't know why the reporter threw the shoes and said and I quote "It's a way for people to draw attention" oh come on Respected (not to mention insulted by this whole episode) Mr G.W. Bush, THIS was ONE way to show HATRED and CONTEMPT probably a lot of people feel for you, even most of the Americans.

Muntazer al-Zaidi, I salute you man, for actually being this courageous and for not fearing the aftermath of it all, and for screaming " This is a gift from Iraqis, a farewell kiss you dog". I wish I could lend you all my shoes, so that you could throw them one by one, and insult him for all that he has caused.

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/26184891/vp/28234255#28234255

this was the Iraqi verdict of the Bush's reign, I wonder what Pakistani Verdict would be like.... ??? wicked??? ;)

a farewell KISS you Bandar!!!

am I worthy of being this privileged??

2008-12-03T01:14:00.005Z

few bearded men sitting in a round depression in a large room....and I am sitting with them.
I don't remember the topic of discussion anymore, but I did remember it this morning.
suddenly I look back , and I see people surrounding someone, everyone is wearing either green or white...
it seems like they are all protecting someone, and then some how I get to know that it is our holy Prophet (P.B.U.H) who is being guarded by bearded men.
I then see a man approaching our holy Prophet(P.B.U.H) and the guards with a gun, and I......jump up with a similar gun in my hand, and dive into the air at the same time pressing the trigger, probably killing the man, attempting to shoot our Holy Prophet (P.B.U.H) NaoozoBillah
and then I woke up.....
this is the second time I got the privilege of seeing our Holy Prophet(P.B.U.H) this year. I just cant explain how happy I am. But I keep thinking, am I worthy of being bestowed upon with SUCH a big thing as this????
Thank you My Lord for such a wonderful dream.
(Prophet P.B.U.H kee ziarat kee khohaish kiss ko nahi ho gee.....)
I guess I am LUCKY!! :)
(but who was that Man trying to shoot?? and why?? )

read the post from the link below

2008-11-25T15:11:00.003Z

Cling and Clatter: Little boy on the road
a little something that made me think, you ought to have no self respect/self esteem when you ask others for money. This boy, probably needs money to survive but still he chose not to beg for it!!!

one of my PASSIONS!!

2008-11-25T14:54:00.001Z

every passing day, I learn something new about myself.....
I realized yesterday, that I did not know much about myself up until recently.
Sheffield, has made me come closer to myself.
I came to Sheffield to become a specialist in my field, i-e dentistry. What I did not know was that I would be pursuing a few of my passions here too.
I always enjoyed dancing, but never in my wildest dreams had I ever thought I would be actually learning different dance styles here!!!
Dance is a form of expression that helps a person to discover a whole new world...a profession for some...a passion for me
so far I have learned :
Bollywood style dancing
belly dance (very erotic I must say :P)
Ceilidh(Scottish Country dance)
Salsa and meringue
and these were all taught by professionals....
lets see if I open up a clinic in Islo or a dance society on my return to Pakistan!! ;)

2008-10-26T01:22:00.000+01:00

I am Pakistani.

I am not a terrorist.

I don't live in a tent in a desert and camels are not my way of transportation.

I speak Urdu, not Hindi.

Pakistan is NOT pronounced as "PHAKEESTAN" but as "PAAKISSTAAN"

Pakistan is a beautiful country ran by the wrong people.

Allow me to introduce myself: I'M A PAKISTANI and am proud of it

New life...new start

2008-10-25T08:15:00.000+01:00

here I am ...returning to my blog after a long long time....
will be writing daily I suppose...
life changes for everyone.....so it has for me.
and the change should always be welcomed!!
I spread my arms today, and welcome my new life.....
*takes a long deep breath*

2007-07-12T13:11:00.000+01:00

all-consuming relationship

When in love, how do you preserve your identity and course in life? Here is the number one reason for losing yourself in a relationship: Your belief that love is something you either deserve or not! Your misguided belief leads you to counterproductive efforts to do almost anything to get love and even more to hold onto it:
You modify your identity to gain approval and love from your partner.
You hold back intimacy to protect your vulnerability.
You have a need to manipulate your partner.

2007-07-12T13:01:00.000+01:00

If you long for a partner who is wholeheartedly behind you, ask yourself, are you the same partner? Do you give that which you seek in your relationship? Ironically, many lack the qualities they seek in their partners.

2007-07-12T12:21:00.000+01:00

Beware of 'mustabation', the belief that you must have a new relationship, a better job and a bigger house before you can be happy. Extremes of thought only set you up for failure. Remember, what you want is what you've not yet got but what you need is all around you! Don't chuck the baby out with the bathwater, work to improve things.

2007-07-03T19:11:00.000+01:00

never let the chance of letting someone you love, know, how much they mean to you......

or never let some special moments just pass by when you can actually make good use of them

difficult question!!

2007-07-03T17:56:00.000+01:00

If there are two people in front of you...
one your LOVE...
and the other your TRUE companion...
who would you want to spend the rest of your life with?

LOVELY!!!!

2006-05-19T19:05:00.000+01:00

In my book of lies I was the editor

And the author

WILD FLOWER------ skylark

2006-01-25T18:29:00.000Z

She's faced the hardest times,
You could imagine
And many times,
Her eyes fought back the tears
And when her youthful world,
Was about to fall in
Each time her slender shoulders,
Bore the weight of all her fears
And a sorrow no one hears
Still rings in midnight silence
In her ears

Let her cry,
For she's a lady
Let her dream
For she's a child
Let the rain,
Fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower
Growing wild

And if by chance,
I should hold her
Let me hold her for a time
But if allowed just one possession
I would pick her from the garden,
To be mine

Be careful how you touch her,
For she'll awaken
And sleep's the only freedom,
That she knows
And when you walk into her eyes,
You won't believe
The way she's always payin
'For a debt she never owes
And a silent wind still blows
That only she can hear
And so, she goes

Let her cry,
For she's a lady
Let her dream,
For she's a child
Let the rain
Fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower
Growing wild

Let her cry,
For she's a lady
Let her dream,
For she's a child
Let the rain
Fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower
Growing wild

She's a flower
Growing wild

She's free.......

just a thought

2006-01-24T17:44:00.000Z

when ever I see you, my foot steps become faster....... NOT my heart beat!!!

a little something that still touches my heart

2006-01-15T11:36:00.000Z

Kyun Bantay Ho

Aashna

Lamha Bhar Ko

Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar

Umr Bhar

Humain BanKar

Ajnabi

Kyun Bantay Ho

Aashna

Lamha Bhar Ko

Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar

Umr Bhar

Humain Ban Kar

Ajnabi

Tanha Rehnay Do

Mujhay Tanha Rehnay Do

Bura Ya Bhala Jee To Raha Hoon

Zinda Rehnay Do

Tanha Rehnay Do

Mujhay Tanha Rehnay Do

Bura Ya Bhala

Jee To Raha Hoon

Zinda Rehnay Do

Kyun Bantay Ho

Aashna

Lamha Bhar Ko

Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar

Umr Bhar

Humain Ban Kar

Ajnabi

Koi Hal Nahin

Ab Koi Hal Nahin

Nazar Main Meri

Humara Tumhara

Koi Kal Nahin

Koi Hal Nahin

Ab Koi Hal Nahin

Nazar Main Meri

Humara Tumhara

Koi Kal Nahin

Kyun Bantay Ho

Aashna

Lamha Bhar Ko

Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar

Umr Bhar

Humain Ban Kar

Ajnabi

Kyun Bantay Ho

Aashna

Lamha Bhar Ko

Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar

Umr Bhar

Humain Ban Kar

Ajnabi

BROKEN HEART!!

2005-12-14T08:01:00.000Z

sometimes they hurt you so much
your heart starts to ache
your brain goes numb

it is just a matter of words
a few words....a few comments
delivered so recklessly

an already broken heart
how much more pieces can it break into
could it bleed any more??

all pieces gathered
all parts glued
all blood wiped off

is it the same heart now?
does it still have all those feelings??
emotions from the past?

its a heart with a scar on it
a black long scar
the exterior is healing

the interior is still so soft
the interior still bleeds
the interior still aches

its a strong heart now
its a steel heart now
stainless steel heart

but interior is still
as warm n soft n supple
and full of memories

No its not a stone heart
it has feelings...
all locked up inside the steel exterior

one more grievance
and it will explode
and no one will be able to gather the bits n pieces

ZOMBIE

2005-12-11T15:28:00.000Z

high above in the sky
lynching in the cold air
my feet are frozen
and I can see them
all busy in their worlds
I SCREAM!!
they hush me
I CRY!!
they scold me
I PROTEST!!
they ignore me
I am SILENT!!
I say no more
they ACKNOWLEDGE me

2005-11-30T16:57:00.000Z

In he and she I find no me, in me no more I find a shade of thee.

2005-11-26T20:36:00.000Z

Alone in the dark
is how I feel
trapped in the shadow
I cannot breath
the farther I go
the more it haunts
the harder I try
more weaker it gets

Alone in the dark
is how I feel
the faces I see
I cannot perceive
the relations there were
I cannot conceive
the dreams I have
I cannot fulfill

Alone in the dark
is how I feel
the higher I go
the deeper they push
the stable the path gets
more tremors I feel

Alone in the dark
they want me to feel
alone in the world
is what I feel

why AM I so confused???

2005-08-28T05:45:00.000+01:00

What is Life??? Its purpose??? What are we doing on earth??? Why are we here on earth???

I have been thinking ALL my life....What is the purpose of my existence on earth??? What am I????Who am I?? Why am I????
If I take Reference from Quran...or concentrate on the teachings of Islam..I might understand the true meaning and Purpose of life......But do u really think I wouldn't have done that already?

A human mind is never satisfied!! and is ALWAYS in search of answers...and even AFTER it gets all the answers!! It doesn not stop there!!! And the quest continues!! The chase continues!!
Human beings (ashraf-ul- makhlookat)have always been in search ...In search of a lot of things...In search of happiness, in search of mysteries and in search of God!!!
do u know where God is????? We KNOW he exists!! exists everywhere!! BUT exactly where????
human mind has lots of gray matter..folds...gyri...sulci.... BUT still its TOO LIMITED!!limited to only the kind of thinking God allows us to have.
YES..it is Allah's will that we cannot think beyond our knowledge,beyond our imagination. TIME , SPACE....Are only relative entities...What is TIME?? Do you know?? Do I know?? Just a relative term or period, created by Allah to explain and relate certain things to us. There are no time limits where Allah Almighty lives...Where heaven and hell are sited.
BUT where does Allah Almighty live?? Why cant we see him?? What does he do all day?? Are there days over there too?? over where?? What's this all about??
Again the same question...why are we here on earth?? Where is earth?? Near Allah?? Near heaven??
What does our existence mean? why were we created?? If the entire universe was created only and only for Prophet Mohammad (P.B.U.H) then why were WE created??
WHY??
If there is destiny..If the good and the bad souls were pre determined..then why were they sent on earth?? When nothing I do can change my destiny..then why do I have to do anything in the first place??
The" what", "why","when", drives me crazy...and all my life these questions have popped up in my mind one way or another. Why do I keep struggling to seek answers. Why can't I just stop thinking? I CAN'T coz Allah Almighty has made me like that, has given me a brain to USE n not waste...BUT ....WHY???
why can't I be like the millions of girls that I know...with no worries...the girls for whom "why", "what", "when" does not mean anything and it does not interfere with their lives...all they worry about is the next day...what they would wear...what they would say... they do not want to think where they will be ten years from now...their only worry is their boy friends...their most important relationship...no other relationship matters to them..and their world revolves around them...I wish I could think like them..I really really do!!
I still don't know what my existence means..and what I am doing?? why was I created?? to fill the gaps?? spaces??
YES I accept I have reached a certain milestone in my life...and for the past many years THIS is all I wanted...BUT now...I am not even sure if that's what I actually wanted...I am confused twice over!!.. What do I want now?? Will I die unnoticed like millions of people around me?? Was I sent on earth just to be a part of a BORING play?? Was there no special REASON for my creation??
Why after achieving all this, that I once thought would be enough for me,I still think I am standing no where?? why do I feel there is A LOT I still have to do..NEED to do??
Maybe coz the real battle..the real play has just not begun yet!!
God....I really am confused!!

EVERYONE LOOKS LIKE EVERYONE!!

2005-08-11T08:19:00.000+01:00

People today are so clonish!!! Everyone looks like everyone!!!

Fashion crazy generation of today is following the new trends SO religiously.
Yes there seems like no originality, no individuality!
everyone is copying everybody. The only thing that makes everyone different from everyone else is their inner beauty, their mind, their thoughts!!

YES I agree...I myself am crazy when it comes to following the new fashion trends. People around are SO shallow ( including me)...That if they see someone else wearing the same stuff as them...they will be like..Hey look that GIRL/GUY is wearing my exact same shoes!! OR Why the hell did you copy my purse( don't u know I have copy rights for that!! I can sue you!! I swear I will!! but I am afraid the person/model I copied it from will sue me too..so I forgive you!! :P)
THIS is exactly wat I hear my friends/family saying to people around them. I myself hear myself saying sometimes " hey don't tell anyone where you got that from..I don't want every single person around wearing the exact same thing!!"...YUCK!!!! is that how I am suppose to think!!! wat has happened to me??? was I always like that!!! Or is it ''IN'' these days to bitch about almost everything and to be skeptic ALL the time????? YES....I guess it has become the new IN thing to pull everyone else's leg OR bitch about them behind their backs!!!
NOW coming back to the main issue!!..... Fashion has taken over our country like a storm!! The more u follow it the more it takes over you!! And YES....we ALL do look clonish(clone)!! everyone is wearing a uniform these days!!! the same short shirts, dholak shalwars!!!
I myself am acting like an ass.....got myself dozens of such uniforms stitched!! WHY??? coz I am starting my house job in a couple of days!! And I DO want to look like everyone else!!! I DO want to look fashionable!!
fashion IS to be followed!! we should not be ashamed of following one particular trend the so called "IN" trend.....and we should also keep in mind not get too annoyed at seeing someone else wearing OR following the same trend!!!!!
BUT!!!!!Please!!!!Please!!!...Don't copy the exact same style....plz don't just "COPY" and "PASTE".... instead try to customize the graphics a bit!!!!
be fashion crazy!!! but don't be the "COPY CAT"!!!
put some effort.....and make your own personal fashion statements!!! instead of following it...word to word OR copy pasting it.......put some personal touch!!! something of your own self!! your own style!!!!! THAT way u would be following the fashion without wearing the UNIFORM every one else is wearing!!!!
..................just an advice....................

CHILL n BE FASHIONABLE!!

AND

DO follow all the new trends!!! ( just like polygamy so mercilessly followed by the male society these days >: )

what is my destiny??

2005-08-07T20:37:00.000+01:00

my destiny seems so near
yet so far away

I have crossed so many milstones
yet there are many to come

My vision seems so clear
yet I cannot focus

its all so clear what I want
yet so indistinct

why is there confusion in the air..... insecutiry everywhere??

what am I doing....where am I going??

when will I reach my destiny...how will I reach my destiny??

what is my destiny?????

A little something that touched my heart!!

2005-08-05T22:12:00.000+01:00

Aashnaa
Artist: Junaid Jamshed

Kyun Bantay Ho
Aashna
Lamha Bhar Ko
Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena HaiGar
Umr Bhar
Humain Ban Kar
Ajnabi

Kyun Bantay Ho
Aashna
Lamha Bhar Ko
Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar
Umr Bhar
Humain Ban Kar
Ajnabi

Tanha Rehnay Do
Mujhay Tanha Rehnay Do
Bura Ya Bhala
Jee To Raha Hoon
Zinda Rehnay Do

Tanha Rehnay Do
Mujhay Tanha Rehnay Do
Bura Ya Bhala
Jee To Raha Hoon
Zinda Rehnay Do

Kyun Bantay Ho
Aashna
Lamha Bhar Ko
Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar
Umr Bhar
Humain Ban Kar
Ajnabi

Koi Hal Nahin
Ab Koi Hal Nahin
Nazar Main Meri
Humara Tumhara
Koi Kal Nahin

Koi Hal Nahin
Ab Koi Hal Nahin
Nazar Main Meri
Humara Tumhara
Koi Kal Nahin

Kyun Bantay Ho
Aashna
Lamha Bhar Ko
Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar
Umr Bhar
Humain Ban Kar
Ajnabi

Kyun Bantay Ho
Aashna
Lamha Bhar Ko
Kabhi Kabhi

Jeena Hai Gar
Umr Bhar
Humain Ban Kar
Ajnabi

nothing makes any sense!!

2005-07-30T15:19:00.000+01:00

have you ever wondered wats your role in this play called "life"??
have you ever wondered wats the meaning of your existence??
have you ever wondered if your presence makes any difference to any one around you??
if you die today..how many people will shed a tear?? will it change or move anything in this damned world??
life is full of events.....sometimes very small or minute events change your life dramatically..FOR EVER!!
its funny, how small incidents make you change the way u think about certain things.
how small gestures, meanings less words effect you.
its strange and ironic how meaningful these meaningless words can be!! and How they make u think over the lines u never thought u would think over!!!
nothing makes any sense!! all seems temporary!! hollow!!