Wednesday, October 28, 2009

darya kee talash main gum hoon

aik aisay darya kee talash main gum hoon, jo samandar main na giray....buss behta jayay..behta jayay... aur aik nao ho, jo uss main behti jayay...behti jayay.. kabhi na rukay
na uss naoo kee koi manzil ho aur na hee darya uss ko kissi manzil pohncha sakay....

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Sunday, September 20, 2009

ME!

I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know.
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye.
I don't want to stand with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.

I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of a man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in shame.

I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all people respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff, an empty show.

I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see.
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Restorative dentist!

Reached yet another milestone. I just can not thank my Allah enough for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me.
I remember one year ago how I was feeling. I never knew this year would pass so quickly.
All the difficulties that I had to encounter were not faced with a positive attitude, but, this one year did teach me how to keep a positive attitude towards life.
Also had the opportunity to test and practice my patience. Made some really good life long friends.
learned a lot of lessons, some through the hard way, and some through the easy way.
In short, the roller coaster ride, worth every minute! :)

Thursday, August 06, 2009

arrogance and ego, virtues of Satan!!

I came across a lot of arrogant people, with ego the size of a mountain. Such people are so called rule-breakers, and they love themselves as they think, they are different from the world.
well, I think, these are the exact qualities that "Satan/Shaitan" possessed.... he was arrogant, had a huge ego and broke the rule....
he is paying for being like this and will pay a handsome amount when he burns in hell on 'judgment day'!!
All those who are following his foot steps.. please!! get a hold of yourself, its never too late!

Monday, July 27, 2009

the whole world under one roof without a world war!

one American, one Britisher, One Greek, two Chinese, and one pakistani.......
no this is not another one of those jokes with several dumb people from different countries making blunders to compete in stupidity!!
This is my flat, Brightmore house, which had all these nationalities under one roof.
there were no world wars!! but a few occasional arguments, solely addressing cleanliness.
three of the nationalities managed to become the closest of friends... which of coarse includes mine.
any guesses???
Chinese are not just my type of people, so that leaves behind four!!!!
now I don't have to spill the beans....
but the three of us were happy to have each other as flat mates!!!
everyone else had to leave and now only me and Vassiliki are here!!! alone in the huge flat!!
and when Vaz is not around... I hear strange sounds coming from the lounge!! :/
the haunted brightmore house??? :P

another milestone?

just another few months and I will be getting a post graduate degree (InshAllah)... a degree I really worked hard for.

I always wanted to pursue a masters degree, but now I want to pursue a doctorate.....

I don't think I have the stamina for that!!! the clinical masters and the stress that came with it, was enough for this life time!!!

but if at all I DO, end up perusing a phD, God help me!

I wont be "me" anymore..... I miss myself already!!!!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

a story common for a lot of people! I simply loved it

beautiful Lyrics!! for all those who it relates to!! enjoy this lovely "SONG" by 'Anees Haider'

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

lil angel

today I became a "phupo" (Aunt)
I wish the lil angel all the happiness in the world.
wish I could be there with my family today, with my mother, my borther to share this big day!! I am stuck in a land, which has only "struggle" as the rule to survive!
soon this chapter of struggle will be closed and a new chapter will stare back at me with the 'forewords', too scary for me to handle!!!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

kia naam doon

Dor koi bhi ho, baiton kay liaya maon kay khaab aik jaisay hee hotay hain

Un khabon kee zari main, kaheen tu doaun kee girhain lagnay lagti hain

aur kaheen umeed kee sheereni banti jaati hai

Laikin aksar surmay kee kaali lakeeron kay raastay saaray khaab beh jaatay hain

Kiyon kay tareekh ko shayad aik hee rang pasand tha…. laal rang


Wo….

Is do harfi kee bohat see shaklain hain

Wo ..jisay hum umer bhar chahtay hain

Wo…jissi hum kabhi nahi chahtay

Wo... jo hamaray saath rehta hai..

Wo… jo kabhi nahi milta..

Wo..jiss say hum naraz rehtay hain

Aur Wo.. jo apni marzi rakhta hai



Intezaarr

Bachpan main khilono ka intezar

Duaaon kay baad baarish ka intezar

Intezaar!!!!!

Chaltay chaltay koi naam dhoondta rehta hai

Gali kay moar pay tasweerain banata rehta hai

Kundiyon main atka rehta hai

Intezaar khatam ho jaata tu aankhain raaston say uth kay khud ko band na ker laiteen?


Intezaar kerna zaroori hai

Laikin intezaar ka thaiher jaana tu zaroori nahi


Hamaray pairon say bandhay raastay na ginti kay hain na gin’nay kay

Zindagee zaroorat kee unglii pakray dorti chali jaati hai

Koi awaz, koi sakoon, koi wada iss say rok nahi sakta

Khaahishon ka shoar, awaaz ko goongha ker daita hai

Aur zaroorat kee umar barhti rehti hai

Zindagee…zindagee bhala kahan rukti hai



Aik din mujhay raastay main aik shaks mila

Us nay haaton main do aik jaisay chehray utha rakhay thay

Poocha.. in do chehron ka kiya matlab

Bola.. aik main khud hoon, doosra ..duniya

Poocha..in main say tum kon ho

Bola..ab yaad nahi raha

Phir Poocha… iss ka fiada??

Bola..mujhay nuksaan say fiada uthanay kee aadat ho chuki hai

Kaheen door aik takhtii pay likhay hoyay kuch lafz muskura diaya

Aur hum dono nay apnay apnay chehray utha liyay

Saturday, May 30, 2009

The Woman of my Life!!


The woman in your life...very well expressed...


Tomorrow you may get a working woman, but you should marry her with these facts as well.

Here is a girl, who is as much educated as you are;
Who is earning almost as much as you do;

One, who has dreams and aspirations just as you have because she is as human as you are;

One, who has never entered the kitchen in her life just like you or your Sister haven't, as she was busy in studies and competing in a system that gives no special concession to girls for their culinary achievements

One, who has lived and loved her parents & brothers & sisters, almost as much as you do for 20-25 years of her life;

One, who has bravely agreed to leave behind all that, her home, people who love her, to adopt your home, your family, your ways and even your family, name...

One, who is somehow expected to be a master-chef from day #1, while you sleep oblivious to her predicament in her new circumstances,
environment and that kitchen

One, who is expected to make the tea, first thing in the morning and cook food at the end of the day, even if she is as tired as yo u are, maybe more, and yet never ever expected to complain; to be a servant, a cook, a mother, a wife, even if she doesn't want to; and is learning just like you are as to what you want from her; and is clumsy and sloppy at times and knows that you won't like it if she is too demanding, or if she learns faster than you;

One, who has her own set of friends, and that includes boys and even men at her workplace too, those, who she knows from school days and yet is willing to put all that on the back-burners to avoid your irrational jealousy, unnecessary competition and your inherent
insecurities;

Yes, she can drink and dance just as well as you can, but won't, simply Because you won't like it, even though you say otherwise

One, who can be late from work once in a while when deadlines, just like yours, are to be met;

One, who is doing her level best and wants to make this most important, relationship in her entire life a grand success, if you just help her some and trust her;

One, who just wants one thing from you, as you are the only one she knows in your entire house - your unstinted support, your
sensitivities and most importantly - your understanding, or love, if you may call it.

But not many guys understand this......

Please appreciate "HER"

Respect Her………..Understand her.

Friday, May 22, 2009

nice song and an equally good video!

Takin' back my love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RrFUgCWYXFc

Monday, May 18, 2009

yeah maira dewana pan hai.... ya mohabat ka saroor

something worth listening to!!! my favorite these days!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R1oQYnwoJq0

Sunday, May 17, 2009

forgive or not to forgive!

Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
(Mahatma Gandhi)

BUT

Forgiveness does not always lead to a healed relationship. Some people are not capable of love, and it might be wise to let them go along with your anger. Wish them well, and let them go their way.
(Anonymous author of RealLivePreacher.com)

Monday, May 04, 2009

Trip to Alton Towers 2nd May 2009

As I was getting off the bus, I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I was with a group of twelve friends and I was looking forward to a wonderful day. Not that it was not wonderful, it was in fact much more than that….

I was lured into every ride, with the incentive, that this would be the best ride ever and that I should not miss it at any cost. And like a small child, who is, hastily finishing up a task, for the promised box of sweets, I kept on going from one ride to the other, anticipating more thrill and less fear.

But the reverse happened, with every ride, the thrill diminished and the fear became two folds, up until the last ride, the Oblivion. I was oblivious to what will happen in Oblivion………. I was taken up in the sky some 200 meters and then dropped straight down, from the open air, into a closed tunnel right before I thought I would hit the ground. It was a dark tunnel, cold and scary, but the feeling only lasted a few seconds, and the roller coaster brought me back up, high above the ground. I went through the exact same feelings of fear and helplessness I felt on 15th September 2008 when I fell into a similar tunnel. But this time, I came out of the tunnel, happy and alive. I even wanted to ride Oblivion once more, and then I realized, I have become much stronger, fearless.

Life is a roller coaster ride, and I am ready for it now, no matter how high it takes me, or how deep it throws me, how fast it goes or how fearful it gets… I will come out happy and fearless!!!

Nobility by Alice Cary (1820-1871)



True worth is in being, not seeming,
In doing, each day that goes by,
Some little good--not in dreaming
Of great things to do by and by.
For whatever men say in their blindness,
And spite of the fancies of youth,
There's nothing so kingly as kindness,
And nothing so royal as truth.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Winter must be cold for those with no warm memories